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I grew up in a good Christian home, but somehow I took a wrong turn and now I'm in prison. I feel like I've betrayed Jesus (like Judas did) and I'm afraid God will never forgive me for what I've done. After all, He didn't forgive Judas, did He?


No, God did not forgive Judas for his treachery in betraying Jesus—but then Judas never repented of his sins and asked God to forgive him. He was sorry for what he did; he even took his own life out of regret. But being sorry for our sins isn’t the same as repenting of them and asking God to forgive us—and Judas never took that step.

But do you remember Peter, another of Jesus’ little band of followers? Peter boldly said he would never turn his back on Jesus, but after Jesus’ arrest, Peter denied even knowing Him—not once, but three times. Like Judas, Peter later regretted what he had done; the Bible says “he went outside and wept bitterly” (Matthew 26:75).

But Peter did something more: He sought God’s forgiveness—and God forgave him, and Peter became one of the greatest Christians the world has ever known. Listen: If God could forgive Peter, He can forgive you. And He wants to forgive you, because He loves you. You may have turned your back on Christ but He hasn’t turned His back on you.

The Bible’s promise is for you: “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9). Turn to Jesus today and ask Him to come into your life and cleanse you—and He will.

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  1. janella bacon says:

    Jesus is my star. However I have so many people betray me and it’s like if you just leave them alone then they think that you haven forgave them but I just felt like I don’t like you.

  2. Laurence Johnson says:

    Jesus loves you. I have created a distance from God and did it of my own free will in temptation please know that even now I suffer but I want you to know you are loved.

  3. Katie says:

    I have betrayed God and felt like Judas. I’ve been sorry for my sins and asked for forgiveness but still wanted to die out of regret like Judas. I keep praying God please please help me out of my mind help me to stop thinking these things. I got way too deep into self diagnosing and lost faith and I’m going insane. I’m only 18 with my whole life ahead of me but I just can’t shake the feeling that God can’t forgive me if I don’t let him. I can’t forgive myself. I’ve been oppressed and had terrifying dreams and freaked out like Judas. But I’m still here because I want to be like Peter. I’m just tired of this world and at the end of myself trying to hold on to any last bit of sanity I have left. I just need God so badly.

    1. BGEA says:

      God has not abandoned you, Katie. He loves you and He can forgive you. Please consider visiting to talk and pray with a member of our team.

  4. Nick says:

    I have rejected God in the past and that sin has defiled me and I am divided with habitual rejection and rebellion and the other half is diminishing. I am dying on the inside and full of scenarios in my mind about running away and I am losing all my faith and I seem to be getting crushed by the enemy and there seems no way out?

    1. Nick says:

      And i am also not saved

    2. BGEA says:

      There is a way out, Nick. Please know that you still can have peace even though you claim to have rejected God before. The key is to accept Him now. He can help you find peace in the middle of your struggles. Please visit to learn more and talk with someone further.

  5. Roberto Reyes says:

    Thanks very helpful website and inspirational, please keep sharing Gods word to the world!

  6. Jeff hooper says:

    I went forward at mission England in the eighties. I respect billy Graham and the work that god has done through him.I felt totally different after going forward but I still doubt that I’m a sincere believer. I ended up in jail a few years ago for drug offences turned away from all of that and I am a family man but still have problems with anger and profanity . because of this is the reason I doubt my conversion. I also get thrown off the rails when I come into contact with the more fundamentalist side of Christianity which totally disturbs my spirit and makes me want to turn away from Jesus because I know what goes on in my heart and head . help.

    1. S. Griffin says:

      I am not the author of The Lamb’s Book of Life, so only you and God could answer the question of your true salvation through prayer and studying God’s Word. Read about the parable of the sower to understand that only those whose soil was properly prepared (softened), could bring forth fruit (good fruit that benefits the Kingdom). God’s Word also says that “you will know them by their fruit”. Are you familiar with the fruit of the spirit? Are you familiar with the fruit of righteousness (not self-righteousness, as that is a turn off). Search the scriptures regarding fruit. God will reveal to you if you are a fruit bearer for the Kingdom or not. If you find that you are not, then repent! TURN AWAY from your evil sins and desires and Pray!